South Africa fast bowler Kagiso Rabada has spoken publicly for the first time about his one-month suspension for recreational drug use, acknowledging the mistake but making it clear he is focused on moving forward as he prepares for the World Test Championship (WTC) final in London.
Rabada, who tested positive during the SA20 league in January for a substance classified under South African anti-doping regulations — potentially cannabis, cocaine, heroin, or ecstasy — said the situation forced him into deep self-reflection but also reaffirmed his gratitude for the game.
“This is not an ideal situation. I don't need too many pats on the back here,” Rabada told reporters as he departed for the UK. “I think I owe it to [my team-mates] — they're my team-mates. We've come from so far, you know. I've already spoken to them, and I guess we can talk more when we’re all together again.”
Rabada had abruptly returned home from the IPL in late March, with Cricket South Africa initially citing “personal reasons.” It was later revealed that he had served a doping-related suspension after admitting to using a recreational drug. His cooperation is understood to have helped him avoid a harsher penalty. After completing the ban, he returned to India and played two more matches for Gujarat Titans before turning his attention back to national duty.
“The decision to come back early [from the IPL] was brilliant, and that’s a decision I made,” Rabada said. “I could have tried to contest it and whatnot, but coming home was the best option. I was in good hands. All the parties that were involved made the process smooth.”
While Rabada issued a formal apology to fans following the announcement of his suspension, he struck a measured tone during his latest remarks, expressing regret but pushing back against the idea of prolonged self-reproach.
“There are people who would have been disappointed. And to those people, I'm deeply sorry,” he said. “The people closest to me are the ones I felt I let down. But life moves on. I’ll never be 'Mr-I-Apologise' too much. But I'll never condone that action.”
Despite the controversy, South Africa’s management is hoping Rabada can quickly put the episode behind him and focus on delivering in the WTC final — a marquee event in which he remains one of their most vital assets.
“It led me to a bit of introspection about myself, and I took some time away from the game,” Rabada reflected. “The biggest thing I took away is having gratitude for playing the game we love. I’m just glad to be playing again.”
The 29-year-old now faces not only the pressure of a major final but also the scrutiny that comes with returning from suspension. Rabada, however, appears determined to meet those challenges head-on — with accountability, maturity, and an eye firmly on the cricket ahead.